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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

basketball ; my life
10:39 PM

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

if i ever die....who would weep for me in this bloody world besides my family ?
my friends?who are my friends?friends are pple whom i can trust in them .....and not some bloody bastards who go around spreading fake rumours abt you, or pple who go around backstabbing you, saying bad news abt you.....hmm....POLY HAVE ALOT OF THIS BASTARDS!
sorry...i'm getting abit vulgar....but this is what's happening......
saying one thing and meaning something else...WTF is their problem...must they act infront of pple....dun you find this tiring....
or imagine this....you know some pple who act totally different when they are infront of gurls(presume they are guys)...totally humiliation to men

i dun know....i just wanna be myself.....the one who presents himself, and not as someone else....

back to the topic.....who would shed a single tear for me?
the bballerS?bendy?yuqiang?4SE pple?......or these poly fuckers?haha...this is such a joke....

lucky...TH played bball with me today..or else my mood is never going to get better today...
although i didn't play well....but at least this cooled me down..

basketball ; my life
11:28 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Friday
yeahZ!!collected the class jerseys....and my number is? my fav no...13!!
chalet started on friday....but i need to give out the jerseys to the them on sat morning...so i didn't go on friday.Another reason is dat, i'm very tired.Really need a gd rest.....
and....my mind is full of her & her.....haiz.....what a moron....like her den dun dare to tell her...kAoZ!
Saturday
woke up pretty early in the morning....went down to our old meeting place to play bball and give out jerseys. B4 noon time only got me,ghost,hole and birdie......never play much lor...just shooting and ABC.den ABC....was so stupid lor....reached 3 pt liao den airball...in the end go back to A....siAnZ~not only me....the rest also...haha....joke liao...
played with some teens there..around sec 1 like dat...was like 3 VS 5.Me,hole and ghost...of course we won....11-1,11-0,11-2....haha...the no of balls scored conceded = 5 push ups.
den...4 of went to mac....i was abt to left to go home to change to meet my laopo....but those pple from CLS came!haiz...den promised my laopo dat i will still go and meet her, but at a later time.
ended up playing 4 rounds....
(first round)me, hole and ghost VS monk,cong,duckie,danny---> won
(second round)me,hole,POS,ghost VS monk,cong,duckie,danny---> won
(third round)me, hole, ghost VS danny,monk,teck ching---> won
(fourth round)me, hole, ghost VS cong,duckie, POS--->won
well....guess my mood was very gd today......managed to score 3 pters....geezh, hope i can do the same when it comes to the bball competition.But still there were many mistakes made by me.Ball control needs lot of improvements, shooting needs to be constant, and more observing...

after dat...rushed home, bathed, packed my bag....den rushed down to meet laopo.She accompanied me to buy my slippers...den wanted to bring her eat ice cream, but the resturant too crowded.Ended up, eating at mos burger.....den we tok until i need to go off to chalet.
reached dere....i never eat anything from the bbq...ended up eating 2 Nissan instant noodles dat wasn't filling to me.Not even 1/2 my appetite.Haha...den i sprayed cream of the bday pple...miele, den tze wei...den barry.SONG BO!hehe...den kanna back from barry...backstabbed me and did a wwF stunt on me...LOL...and they suddenly asked to go into the room...i smelled something fishy....i was riGHT!they switched off the lights and whacked me.haha...fUN!
haiz..sad part of the chalet is dat most of the pple left lor....i went to the chalet because of the bday pple lor....if not i ciao liao...or maybe never go also lor....

Sunday
KH came down ot the chalet and bbqed for uS for breakfast!thanks KH!haha...great friend !
den went home....sleep.....eat....woke up and came blogging now....

basketball ; my life
6:03 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2004

有些人不知道活著有什麼意義﹐有些人活了一輩子才知道如何珍惜眼前的東西.

Life's about having dreams and memories....

basketball ; my life
12:30 AM

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

hmm.....saw her again today! after my FOM lecture outside MLT12....she's so cuT3!!haiz...but i shy lo...didn't pick up my courage to tok to her.....haiz.....why i so useless...........

just have this idea again.....i'm going to bring the one to this hotel called "1929".....very romantic sia......then just have a nice dinner somewhere in the city...den go walk walk...after dat go back spend the time together(dun think somewhere else hor@!)..... this hotel got nice atmosphere and design !!

haiz.....dreaming again......when i got guts to tell her.....
hurts so much to hear the truth......depressing....why must every girl dat i like always give me the same results....

basketball ; my life
9:35 PM

gEEzh....i have been too tired to blog for the past few days..... ZzZzzz.......
too many things, yet so little amount of time for our things.....things which we have and want to do....

on friday, enoch told me ....in order for me to change....i need to change my mindset....i agree with him....
i find it very ironic, i used to be the one comforting and telling others these.Yet, it's time for others to tell me that. Just hoping someone can give me 1 tight slap....to wake me up......

erhmm....saturday had accounting test...quite screwed up ....... :(

sunday....went to do WCD project ...den go eat ice cream at swenson.....den go c fireworks...den makan...den sent silin home...den reached home around 11pm.....

and got scolding from my Dad this morning b4 i left home.....for going out too often...i know it's abit over the limits....i deserve dat scolding......
something else is bothering me instead....pple in my class are fighting lor....and it's like i get sandwiched between these 2 pple....i dunno know to response lor.....siGHZ*....tell me what to do lah...

basketball ; my life
12:38 PM

Saturday, August 14, 2004

mind is very focused today.....seems that i'm able to keep my mood serious for the day.....
at least, i'm trying to concentrate on my work now, unlike these past weeks which i'm always distracted by someone.........

fuLL of vigor with bball~.....waiting for that day to come so badly....

noone in this world can comment anything on my actions....cause noone has the position to reprimand me.3ven me myself dun give comments....why do strangers bother so much.....

basketball ; my life
5:00 AM

Thursday, August 12, 2004

hmm....guess i'm finally settled down after 5 weeks in poly....(not getting myself entangled in love life), deciding what i actually want for myself.I always ask others, but not really thought it over for myself. What i want is very simple, i hust wanna do whatever i like(w/o the expense of other's happiness), and stay happy.

Friends, family, my fishes, bball are my today priorities now.Love life now, i will not do anything at the moment.and i kinda hate some gers.They just take the guys for granted.We are not born to be ordered around by you, nor born just to entertain you and doing silly stuff which we look like stupid silly morons.Well, i have had enough.All these nonsense shall ceased.Unless it's my close friends and my loved ones, i won't do any other nonsensical thing.This sounds so mean and sensitive, but i just need to set a standard for myself.

I'm getting far too ill disciplined this days, i need to really get myself more organised.....i shall see, as actions speak louder than words.bball....is still my love....nor i will give up things that i like....mY fiShiEs!~and friends...never give up hopes in them....
if tanghoe you are reading this......i didn't give up our friendship nor 4SE.....bRoTH3rS foRevEr~!

basketball ; my life
10:38 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

hehe...today is celebration for Desmond's bday.....in advance for a day lor....
he treated us to pool at jurong east....but i went to someone's house to buy Moscow Black.....hehe...one of my dream strains.....spent like $65 on 2 pairs lor...heart abit pain....like need to sell 1 pair of Fullred to get it back lor...nevermind, i shall get back to mass breeding for all my strains!~~back for gUppieS!~
ya...den we went to Kbox around 3pm...ended off around 7pm...pretty relaxing la.....the guys played cards with push-ups for forfeits...den poor huimeing lose the big games while on winning streaks for small bets.....now he owns so many pple push ups....LOL.....Den...i was fighting with Zhicheng over the microphone...haha..........
while going home....Miele,me,tau pok,Zhicheng,Barry talked abt planning a chalet next week to celebrate those born in August lor....

sad news is dat my grandma isn't doing well ...she went ofr check up today den the report wasn't gd....something abt her valves near her heart.....God bless my grandma.....

and guess what?~i got into CSCC Welfare Department Organising Committee...hehe....not bad sia...i tok cock during the interview also can get in...haha...

lalala~~wanna go Kbox again la...so fun lor...but abit exp lah....$10++ sia......can only go twice a month lor....more than dat i will be really broke le....

basketball ; my life
10:31 PM

it's me again........having some thoughts right now............
dun really know the reason why i'm thinking all this.....
there's time for everything under the heaven, and there's time to be serious , and time to play.
Like the sch motto, "Up and On", and play like you never play b4, study like you never study b4........Thinking abt myself, i really go wild when i play....and very serious when i'm in the mood, and i dun joke around at all, nor do i laugh abt anything.........perhaps, i'm trained to do so.....

basketball ; my life
3:15 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

lol.....as above....
FOM is the sad case lor...dun want tok abt it la....not i dun know lor...i nervous....couldn't calm my brain down....haiz....why i so useless.....ya lor...why i see her, i dun know what to say....haha....my heart pounds super fast....my mood super gd also lor....haha.....happy....sHe's sO cuTE!

basketball ; my life
4:27 AM

Friday, August 06, 2004

geEZh......think i'm not going to update my blog for a few days le....going to MIA..... going to enjoy myself for the next few days....going to pamper myself....shopping fr3nzy,bballing whole day....y3aH~....

ok lah...today quite normal lor...my mood today was quite serious lor....hardly laugh.....cause there wasn't anything funny to let me laugh at...
and...i met this gal in the canteen again!!yesterday was at library...and today canteen.....hehe...so happY...heart beat extremely fast when i saw her....

ok le....i'm going fullspeed for FOM le......

{wArNiNg:the fern is making a cOm3-bAck on the courts....check him ouT, faster,more accurate...and more team-play...definitely more cheerful~~!!}
bball is my world now......nth beats it....

basketball ; my life
11:39 AM

today....came back home very early.....straight after sch with jerome....kinda of the feeling of missing home.Everyday, i just come home to zzZZ...never spend much time with my family....so, kinda regret of doing so....as if my home is a hotel like this~
had dinner with my family except my elder bro, didn't know dat so much things have been happening....and i dun even know abt it.haiz....dat's why my relationships is my greatest weakness....

and todAy, i saw "someone" at the library!!!woAH...my heart was like pounding so fast when i saw her...woohoo!!!so sweet~~~lol...siao already la.... :)

read my friend,jennifer's blog today....what she said was pretty true.....a little more time is what we need.....
too many committments, too little time.....i guess dat's life.Everyone is experiencing adulthood....in a few yr's time. i bet we would hardly meet each other....
Life has disappoint me so many times, when can it give me hope.....

basketball ; my life
12:13 AM

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

geesh~~~my mind is full of stuff....think my brain cells are decreasing by alot these days........
and my heart is full of burdens....when can i loosen up myself.....

sry to all my friends/classmates,

guess i'm quite serious these days...so dun really joke around.....sorry if i look abit dao to you pple..........

life's....full of burdens...

crying......bursting in tears as i tok abt friends with bendy....so much things going thur my head.....hurts me so much ....
i'm been giving to other so much...yet recievng so little in return....perhaps...i'm expecting too much.....
from the matter with chris leow...to ncc pple....and now 4se pple....i'm losing faith in friends....
maybe dat's why i can't loosen myself till now.....

many told me there's no forever friends...but to me.....there are....but not alot....
but, count myself lucky to know yuqiang and bendy.....

btw.....chris is not my name.....fangwen is my real name.....chris, is someone who dun exist....

basketball ; my life
8:25 PM

Monday, August 02, 2004

hehe....spent the whole day at home...slacking...eating...sleeping....haha.....i feel so gd~~well, i hardly get to do that on normal days.....
well...i just tok to alvin over on MSN....about my relationships problem....it's a triangle thingy....
haiz...too confusing...hope i dun think too much over it la...or else ....i can't concentrate on my sch work.....i'm praying hard not to meet melissa ....hope she wun't appear again....
and...a ger said i have a bad temper....well...dat's very true abt me.....she's the first to say this to me....

jIa you aR f3rNy bOY~..........can someone aN w3i wo?just need to say it all out.....
i'm left with music...to be my listening ears....

-missed SAS(haiz...10 yrs there le...human feelings lor...)
-missed bball days(missed laughters,the gang, the lost "touch" and "satisaction")
-missed lots of pple...(human nature)
-i'm been thinking too much le...need to put a full stop to it(an action)
-love is rewarding, yet painful(my tots)
-looking forward to the day the bball gang gets the jersey, hope to c us unite again one day( a dream...a hope...which i will never give up)
-need to start muGgINg....(discipline)
-need someone by my side(yearning for one)
-need to change specs(need to learn how to c pple properly)
-need to less sensitive, i got jealous over someone in my class.... :P...silly me....(so free until i can think of such stuff)
-need to cherish pple more(regrets)
-maybe i need councelling(confused)
-maybe i need to tell her the truth(p...)
-need to know my friends better(gimmee more time den~~!)
-need to grow more....physically and mentally(everyone is making fun of me...even the gurls... saddening...i dun want to be like this too lor...)
-need to save money(wanna buy my own house by 28)
-need to buy new bag and new shirts(new lookainful)
-maybe i should play bball again(satisfaction)
-maybe i should spend more time with my family(MIA)

+very emotional unstable..just not myself these days....those who knows me well enough should know....i want back my old self....the happy-go-lucky me....the joker ....who takes money and things lightly....the one who regard friends like their brothers....the hyper active me....the one who never say die....the one who puts friends more den his life....the one with many more...too many to say....+

>.< do your best, dun leave regrets in your life....chiong for it....go with your feel -__-
=i know this....but....i'm not doing it....something's pulling me back......=

guess what....i'm abt to cry .....as i'm writing this.....

basketball ; my life
12:03 AM